Hello,
The assessment wasn't difficult for me because I've done this type of evaluation before. I've known for a while what the source of my troubles are; having a spouse who does not communicate, is not affectionate, and shows no love except at certain times, and my daughter has separation anxiety, is kind of hyper, bored, and is high maintenance.
From these relationships comes any stress and irritation that I have. Basically, a high majority of the time I am not as happy as I could be, nor as healthy as I could be.
I feel very unappreciated, I do housework that I would rather not do. In fact, I'd rather have a good job where I was really needed and pay someone to take care of the other two. They have very powerful, overbearing, demanding personalities and I become the least important person in the house. It probably wouldn't look that way from someone on the outside. I have my own office, and I get to go to school, but what I am trying to accomplish is not looked at as important.
I am my husbands and my daughter's best friend, but they are not mine. I would do anything for them (and I do) but it is not the other way around. My daughter is very spoiled because of her father, and if I had it my way things would be a lot different in that regard.
With my husband, I get up between 5:30-6:00a.m. to make him breakfast and give him his medications. He is gone right after that until about 6:00p.m. When he comes home, he talks a little about what happened with everyone at work, takes a nap for 30 minutes. I make dinner, give it to him, he watches television till 9:00pm. then he goes to the gym. That's five days a week. Basically, I cook, clean, do his laundry, and all secretary things, and see him for a while on the weekends. He is the least affectionate person I have ever met in my life. He gives no complements about anything. In my opinion I work hard for both of them and get back very little in return. We both pay the bills, it's not just on his shoulders.
The other issue is; I already understand that I am in this position as a learning tool. I have to learn how to deal with it and use spiritual vices to grow. Just like the suggestion about doing the best you can at your work and make it your own. I do that with being a wife and a mother.
I live in a whole different world then they do. I am very aware of the spiritual world and this is kind of like make-believe. It's hard being reduced to the role that I've been playing.
But, I will continue to pray for them, walk in Love, be grateful, appreciate everything that I have, and be a great example for them each day. Things will change, including me, they always do. :O)
Friday, June 22, 2012
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Unit 5 Blog
I found the Unit 5 MP3 assignment very calming. I liked it better then the Loving-Kindness one. If I felt like I needed to work on being more loving I would have felt more attachment to it. As of now, I give any cash I have in my wallet to anyone I pass that needs help, I drive through neighborhoods and pray for the people in their homes for whatever they are dealing with, and I wake up in the middle of the night at least once a week with a pressure to pray for someone I know. Often it is my 22 year old son. Later without him knowing I had done this he will call me and let me know he was having a difficult time. He was raised with a very abusive, controlling father.
When you make controlling your mind and your attitudes a way of life, instead of flying off the handle about something that happens, you will respond in a more relaxed way. I was taught that when a person gets angry about something there are enough harmful chemicals released into the body, that if a small amount were drawn out and inserted into a guinea pig, it would immeditely kill it. Type A personalities are not born, they are created. People who have rode rage have not trained their mind. All it takes is looking at things differently. Perspectives need to change.
Because I have worked on having the right attitudes, using forgiveness when someone hurts me, very appreciative of anyone who tries to help or just shows kindness towards me, and learned how to walk in Love, I have been protected in situations where many have been killed, I am just as healthy now at 47 yrs. as I was when I was 27 yrs, even though I've been through enough for twenty people's lives. I already had the power of a strong mind, love in my heart, a strong spiritual base under my belt going into the hard times.
I plan to live way past 100 yrs old. I want to be the person who lives the longest on record in our time frame. Because I believe this can be done and because I have so much in my heart that God has shown me to accomplish, I already know that I will. It takes everything this class is teaching us.
When you make controlling your mind and your attitudes a way of life, instead of flying off the handle about something that happens, you will respond in a more relaxed way. I was taught that when a person gets angry about something there are enough harmful chemicals released into the body, that if a small amount were drawn out and inserted into a guinea pig, it would immeditely kill it. Type A personalities are not born, they are created. People who have rode rage have not trained their mind. All it takes is looking at things differently. Perspectives need to change.
Because I have worked on having the right attitudes, using forgiveness when someone hurts me, very appreciative of anyone who tries to help or just shows kindness towards me, and learned how to walk in Love, I have been protected in situations where many have been killed, I am just as healthy now at 47 yrs. as I was when I was 27 yrs, even though I've been through enough for twenty people's lives. I already had the power of a strong mind, love in my heart, a strong spiritual base under my belt going into the hard times.
I plan to live way past 100 yrs old. I want to be the person who lives the longest on record in our time frame. Because I believe this can be done and because I have so much in my heart that God has shown me to accomplish, I already know that I will. It takes everything this class is teaching us.
Monday, June 11, 2012
Unit 4-Loving-Kindness
First I read through the instructions on page 69 of Integral Health, and then I listened to it on the computer. I enjoyed and understood all of it and it's meaning, I was just apprehensive about the part of taking on the loved ones suffering and allowing the dark cloud of suffering to enter my heart. I have years of experience with spiritual healing, and this teaching didn't coincide with what I've been taught. So I adjusted it to fit what I know to do. Instead I engulfed my person with the pure-white-light of the Christ. This is for healing and protection. I believe that this exercise would help a person if they were trying to change and become more loving, and forgiving. I think they would really have to want to change though. With this societies huge and crazy schedules I find it hard to believe that many would dedicate their time to doing this exercise. I see this as one of those discoveries that would work for someone who was told by their doctor that they were going to die of a heart attack if they didn't change their ways. Having loving-kindness as a part of my life and nature is something that I was blessed with, it's not that easy for many personalities and dispositions.
The concept of a Mental Workout means to do things that create new ways of thinking. The easy way to explain it is using Jesus as a reference. In church growing up, people are taught that Jesus is your example of being the perfect human. He was not self-centered, but cared about everyone around Him. He spent time with just God and the Holy Spirit on a daily basis in order to have a strong foundation to stand on. He could hear God's voice inside of Him, and He knew what He was suppose to be doing and when. He studied the scriptures which gave Him guidance on how to live His life successfully. These are the steps a person has to take to be successful at life, to have a strong mind, and a strong inner life.
Besides studying the Bible, I have read hundreds of books over the past forty-years. Mostly Non-Fiction, and not romance, or mystery books. I don't have time for entertainment. There is so much suffering going on in this world, it makes me uneasy on a daily basis. I know I am not normal, but you actually can't be like everyone else in order to accomplish integral health. Everyone else is taking the easy road, not being disciplined, and dieing of everything that's out there. I was taught in the business world that you can't be like one of the cows, just following the herd, you have to be a rhino if you want to be successful!
The concept of a Mental Workout means to do things that create new ways of thinking. The easy way to explain it is using Jesus as a reference. In church growing up, people are taught that Jesus is your example of being the perfect human. He was not self-centered, but cared about everyone around Him. He spent time with just God and the Holy Spirit on a daily basis in order to have a strong foundation to stand on. He could hear God's voice inside of Him, and He knew what He was suppose to be doing and when. He studied the scriptures which gave Him guidance on how to live His life successfully. These are the steps a person has to take to be successful at life, to have a strong mind, and a strong inner life.
Besides studying the Bible, I have read hundreds of books over the past forty-years. Mostly Non-Fiction, and not romance, or mystery books. I don't have time for entertainment. There is so much suffering going on in this world, it makes me uneasy on a daily basis. I know I am not normal, but you actually can't be like everyone else in order to accomplish integral health. Everyone else is taking the easy road, not being disciplined, and dieing of everything that's out there. I was taught in the business world that you can't be like one of the cows, just following the herd, you have to be a rhino if you want to be successful!
Monday, June 4, 2012
Unit three- Wellness
Hi All,
These are some detailed questions this week.
What is being taught to us in this class are things that I have grown up with and have made part of my lifestyle. I don't go to the doctor unless it is absolutely necessary, and that doesn't happen very often.
Q. 1. On a scale of 1-10 for A.-physical wellbeing, B. -spiritual well being, and C.-psychological wellbeing.
A. my physical wellbeing I give a 7 out of 10. I am 47 years old and don't look quite as good as I did when I was in my thirties. I use to be a power-lifter so I use to be muscly and tone. Now, well basically I could look better. I eat extremely healthy because I want the temple that God blessed me with to be in as good of health as possible. I have had two fractured skulls, and I deal with hypoglycemia (opposite to diabetes) so there are physical things that affect me on a daily basis, but I have been working on answers to fix them so that I can help others in the same situation. I have learned to rely on God and my connection and dedication to spiritual growth to keep me healthy so that I don't need healing. What would in my mind be a ten is; to look like a body builder (very toned muscles), and for any type of sickness to not be able to touch me. Jesus is my example.
B. Spiritual I give about a 7 also. I am very dedicated in my walk with God, I am very open minded to all religions and teachings, and I plan to go to metaphysical college after Kaplan. I have studied the subconscious mind for years. It would take all my time to study and practice the techniques that are taught for me to reach a ten status. I want to heal people with my touch, or my thoughts. I want to do all of the things that Jesus did including walking through walls and walking on water. I understand that it is just a matter of the perception of matter, and raising ones consciousness to a level of understanding. I already have the belief :O)
C.Psychological Well being; Most of the time I would give this about a 9. Sometimes the two characters that I live with (my daughter and her father) mess with me and my attitude. I really have a problem with being on a different level of life and having to do things that keep you worldly bound. I never wanted to have children and I never wanted to have a husband. But at the same time I kept telling God when I was growing up, All I want is to be like Jesus and understand what He understood. So He has put me into situations that forced me to understand a lot of the hard times and struggles that Jesus dealt with. I was severely abused by my ex-husband for years. What a perfect time to learn how to "walk in Love", and rely on God for all of your security. For seventeen years, God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit were my only friends. That was the most important years of growth I've gone through yet. This second family I have now has been difficult for me, but I learned to take everything you can from it and God works on a completely different time table then I do :O)
When my spiritual well being goes up to about a nine, then my psychological well being will go up to a 10, it just works that way.
Addressing what to do to raise each of these areas; you have to spend time studying about the topics taught in this class. Deepak Chopra is one of my favorite authors. Reading books about the bible with a bible along side to reference the material really helps to uncover secrets. You have to go beyond normal strict Christianity. There is so much more out there. I use to study under Kenneth Copeland Ministries and Jesse Duplantis. They go beyond just going to church every Sunday. Seriously, you have to start with your spiritual health, and it takes over everything else. It makes you more calm, it makes you want to be nicer to other people, and eat healthier and do more positive things and less negative things.
I enjoyed the relaxation technique. It was dealing with our Chankra's. It is a mild form of what is available to cleanse each area.
These are some detailed questions this week.
What is being taught to us in this class are things that I have grown up with and have made part of my lifestyle. I don't go to the doctor unless it is absolutely necessary, and that doesn't happen very often.
Q. 1. On a scale of 1-10 for A.-physical wellbeing, B. -spiritual well being, and C.-psychological wellbeing.
A. my physical wellbeing I give a 7 out of 10. I am 47 years old and don't look quite as good as I did when I was in my thirties. I use to be a power-lifter so I use to be muscly and tone. Now, well basically I could look better. I eat extremely healthy because I want the temple that God blessed me with to be in as good of health as possible. I have had two fractured skulls, and I deal with hypoglycemia (opposite to diabetes) so there are physical things that affect me on a daily basis, but I have been working on answers to fix them so that I can help others in the same situation. I have learned to rely on God and my connection and dedication to spiritual growth to keep me healthy so that I don't need healing. What would in my mind be a ten is; to look like a body builder (very toned muscles), and for any type of sickness to not be able to touch me. Jesus is my example.
B. Spiritual I give about a 7 also. I am very dedicated in my walk with God, I am very open minded to all religions and teachings, and I plan to go to metaphysical college after Kaplan. I have studied the subconscious mind for years. It would take all my time to study and practice the techniques that are taught for me to reach a ten status. I want to heal people with my touch, or my thoughts. I want to do all of the things that Jesus did including walking through walls and walking on water. I understand that it is just a matter of the perception of matter, and raising ones consciousness to a level of understanding. I already have the belief :O)
C.Psychological Well being; Most of the time I would give this about a 9. Sometimes the two characters that I live with (my daughter and her father) mess with me and my attitude. I really have a problem with being on a different level of life and having to do things that keep you worldly bound. I never wanted to have children and I never wanted to have a husband. But at the same time I kept telling God when I was growing up, All I want is to be like Jesus and understand what He understood. So He has put me into situations that forced me to understand a lot of the hard times and struggles that Jesus dealt with. I was severely abused by my ex-husband for years. What a perfect time to learn how to "walk in Love", and rely on God for all of your security. For seventeen years, God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit were my only friends. That was the most important years of growth I've gone through yet. This second family I have now has been difficult for me, but I learned to take everything you can from it and God works on a completely different time table then I do :O)
When my spiritual well being goes up to about a nine, then my psychological well being will go up to a 10, it just works that way.
Addressing what to do to raise each of these areas; you have to spend time studying about the topics taught in this class. Deepak Chopra is one of my favorite authors. Reading books about the bible with a bible along side to reference the material really helps to uncover secrets. You have to go beyond normal strict Christianity. There is so much more out there. I use to study under Kenneth Copeland Ministries and Jesse Duplantis. They go beyond just going to church every Sunday. Seriously, you have to start with your spiritual health, and it takes over everything else. It makes you more calm, it makes you want to be nicer to other people, and eat healthier and do more positive things and less negative things.
I enjoyed the relaxation technique. It was dealing with our Chankra's. It is a mild form of what is available to cleanse each area.
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